Feeling disgusted...

Since having my Bella a year ago my weight has gone up and down like a yo-yo.  I have lost all the weight plus some and put it all back on - only without a baby this time!  I can't stand it!  I was wayyyyy overweight to begin with and now it is ridiculous!  I didn't way this much 39wks pregnant with twins for pete's sake!  I hate the feel of my body, the mushiness, the folds.  I hate feeling soooo unhealthy!  It has been soooo long since I was at an average weight I don't even know what that would feel like.  I just HATE it!  Why does it have to be so hard to change when I know exactly what it is I need to do?  At this point - the last time I stepped on the scale I was 234lbs!  I qualify for gastric bypass!  How sick is that? I don't even know myself anymore!  I need to make a serious change!!!

I will step on the scale today and find out the damage and post later.  I am currently in size 18-20.  Usually 18, but that is crazy huge! I'm only 5'3".  God, please grant me the strength to fight this battle and win!  Please....

Mother's Day!

So today is Mother's Day.  My girls gave me the sweetest cards, coupon books and chocolates.  It's been a great day so far!  Yesterday, Olivia and Skylar went to the mall with their best friend and they picked out and purchased my presents on their own ~ which makes it that much more sweet and special!  Isabella woke up happy and talkative and said "Hi" first thing which was so stinkin cute! I am the luckiest Mommy in the world to have been blessed with three beautiful girls that really are great kids - and I'm not just saying that because they're mine - they really are!!!