Since having my Bella a year ago my weight has gone up and down like a yo-yo. I have lost all the weight plus some and put it all back on - only without a baby this time! I can't stand it! I was wayyyyy overweight to begin with and now it is ridiculous! I didn't way this much 39wks pregnant with twins for pete's sake! I hate the feel of my body, the mushiness, the folds. I hate feeling soooo unhealthy! It has been soooo long since I was at an average weight I don't even know what that would feel like. I just HATE it! Why does it have to be so hard to change when I know exactly what it is I need to do? At this point - the last time I stepped on the scale I was 234lbs! I qualify for gastric bypass! How sick is that? I don't even know myself anymore! I need to make a serious change!!!
I will step on the scale today and find out the damage and post later. I am currently in size 18-20. Usually 18, but that is crazy huge! I'm only 5'3". God, please grant me the strength to fight this battle and win! Please....
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